such a weird feelings, logging into blogger. the last time i did so was like 1 yr + ago ??

i have nothing to do, so i will jus summarise wat i am now. if u have problem understanding what i am typing, den i guess dun waste time reading it.

hmm, i am still as emo as ever, sensitive as ever.
haha, but i dun really like to emo or wat but i jus cant help it,maybe becoz i have a poor childhood and tts y i am like tt.
people say there are ppl worse than me, if others can get over with, why cant i ?
hmm, whether the one who tell mi those sentance are in a worse state than me or never suffer in the past or what, they are missing 1 point. we are humans, and therefore we are different.
every individuals, have different character,willpower, view point so on and so forth. every individual have their own strong point and weak point, not every 1 is the same.

so when people are saying those sentance to me, are they telling me or assuming that i am the same as them or wat ?? alot of people really only know how to tok. dun really noe how to put themselves in other1 shoe.
actually at times when i try to put myself in sum1 shoes and think, i cant figure out wat he/she is thinking at times. so i dun have right to say ppl thou. tsk.

Currently, i noe quite alot of people thru this swine flu thingy.
who is nice to me or wat, i dunno actually, coz i sumhow feel that there are people hu dun tok to me the same way after sumtimes. which i dunno y, like kind of outcast those kind of feelings. hahah.

perharps if u people knew tt i refering to u, maybe u can enlight mi by telling what i had done, coz i really dunno, and i hate it. especially when i am treat like a transparent at times.

and when u people r talking abt mi, pls dun tok abt mi when i am jus beside or watsoever, coz i dun like it, u can jus tell mi straight. be more straight forward.

i rather u all tell mi straight in my face, rather i turn things upside down.

whether there are ppl saying mi or not, am i over sensitive now or wat or maybe right now, i have mistaken you people, then i am sorry.

but if not, pls jus tell mi, where u nt happy abt mi or watsoever just let mi noe.
dun piss mi off.

The previous blog was deleted along with the past.

So bored and i decide to create a simple layout and type something here.

tok to "lao-de" just now, she is right about me. =/ guess she is -.- at mi =/
basically what i plan for my future isnt meant for myself but for other sake.

so sadist rite?-.-

Actually from the start i have no interest in anything.
Since i am alive living in this world and dont have any goals or aim, instead of living blindly i decide to continue studying just to fulfill that old man wish. at least someone is happy.

6 yrs is long. i have to think that far as i got no choice. if not i do not know what should i do after NS.

sounds emo-.-
think i go slp now bye-.-